Weekends

Does anyone else have a problem with the weekends?  Man, it's like the hardest thing ever to not lose control.  Time to make some weekend goals so I don't blow the good work that I do throughout the week.

ps, I'm starting something on Monday that I'm excited about.  And I will let you know Thursday how it's going.

Strengths Part 1

I want this blog to also be one of growth for me.  Not just a place to vent and complain.  So because I wrote five weaknesses in an earlier post I'm going to also write five strengths that I have. So here goes...

I am a good mother.  I love being a mom.  It's so crazy and busy and hard, but I love it.  And that's one area that I feel I am doing a great job in.

I am a good listener.  I enjoy listening to others and when I do I hope they see that I care about them and what they are saying.  

I am great with kids.  I love to teach kids and I relate to them really well.  I usually feel more comfortable in front of kids than I do with adults.  

I have strong beliefs.  Like I said in an earlier post I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.  I have a strong testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ and I know who I am and why I'm here.  This shapes EVERY part of who I am.

I am creative.  I enjoy doing crafts and coming up with new things to make.  I don't do this as often as I would like though, so sometimes I forget about this side of me.  

Fighting the battle

That is exactly what all of this is.  One big battle.  And it's kind of a long one for some of us, well most of us I bet.  I had a cousin of mine comment on Facebook and she said "Just keep trying.  If you never give up, then you're always in the battle and eventually you will win."  That is awesome advice.  I think that is really good to keep in the back of my mind.  "Just keep it up, Lindsey.  You think you're failing but you're not.  You are just fighting a battle that's really hard to win.  But one day you will get there."  It was a good start to the day to read that advice.   

Frustration = Good Workout

I realized something today while doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred.  I was doing my favorite workout in that dvd, punches, and she said something like "punch out that anger." And then I thought quickly, "that's a good idea."  So I did.  And it felt great.  Instead of thinking "Oh how many more do I have to do?" I just focused on some frustrations I've had.  And boy did that make a difference.  I did it for the rest of the workout and I felt like I could fly.  I don't know how to explain it except that I literally felt that I was punching, jumping, and lifting the frustration right out of me.  I'm going to try to do that every workout and see if it helps.  Let me know if you guys try it and what you think!

Weaknesses Part 1

Wanna know some of my weaknesses?  Whether you do or not, here are some: (please note that this list is incomplete and will be added on to later)

eating late at night - love to do this!  Kids are in bed.  Time to de-stress.  Which of course I do by eating and watching tv.  Not always a great combination.

I can never have just one.  It's never one cookie, it's ten.  I guess that's what sugar does.  It makes you want more.  Evil, evil thing.

compare myself to others.  Does everyone do this as much as me?  Wow I think I do it really bad and I don't like it.  It's like I compare my weaknesses to others strengths. 

I pick off my kid's plates.  You know you do this too!  I read a quote on pinterest that said that the calories don't count when we pick off our kid's plate.  Oh if that were true. 

focusing on what I haven't accomplished that day.  I know this is bad.  And some days I try really hard to focus on the opposite.  It's a daily struggle.



 

why food-aholic diaries you ask?

The name of my new blog creation came from a tv show that I am currently obsessed with.  I'm sure many of you, especially those of you who have talked to me lately, know what I am talking about.   I'm not going to say what because I'm not sure what all the "rules" are with putting that name in my blog.  I'm sure it would be fine, I'm just not 100% sure.  So we'll leave it at that.  But I do love, love, love the show.  And maybe one day I can be as obsessed with staying healthy as I am with the show.  

The beginning

Hi.  My name is Lindsey and I am a food-aholic.  I created this blog for the purpose of journaling all my frustrations, upsets, successes, etc., about getting healthy, controlling my food and enjoying it.  And really whatever else I want that relates or influences me.  When I really look back at how long I've struggled with this it's pretty depressing.  Pretty much as long as I can remember food and I have been at a constant battle.  But it hasn't been until the last few years that it really has taken over my life.  I truly want to change and I'm really trying so many things that in the beginning I felt deep down would work.  There are plenty of quotes out there that motivate me.  But there are plenty that just make me feel like I'm a failure.  So people out there who come up with these quotes please stop saying stuff that makes me feel like a loser.  It's so much more than just saying "I'm going to keep going and stay motivated."  It's so much more than saying "I can change."

I kind of just want to scream and cry all at the same time over all of this!  Let me be clear that I know who I am.  I'm grateful for where I'm at in my life.  I LOVE my family and they are everything to me.  I am a faithful member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.  And I know spiritually where I stand.  I'm just struggling with so many different little things about my health and weight that it all just piles up, one on top of another and before I know it it's reached the ceiling and is about to come crashing down.  AHHHHHHHH!  There.  I feel better.  A little bit.

Also I kind of just want to know if there are others out there that struggle right along with me.  I feel like because I can't control this one aspect in my life other areas fall apart as well.  Some say "I can control everything except for my diet."  Not me.  I can't control my diet.  Which then leads to me feeling down and stressed.  Which then leads to me not feeling motivated to do what I know I need to do.  I can't get a handle on it.  It's just like this never-ending cycle.  That's my venting session.  Hope you enjoy reading my honest opinion of how hard all of this is for me.  Maybe some of you can relate and maybe some of you are just feeling bad for me.  All I know is that I feel the need to write down all of these feelings for one reason or another and I don't care how it makes me look.  Enough is enough.

Please keep reading and commenting!

(I'm saying this in hopes that I will get some readers.  Any rude or offensive comments will be removed or deleted! -so keep it friendly and polite)